adore.

i adore senior citizens. from the way they dress, to the way they talk, to their sometimes grumpy disposition. I get excited when i see old couples, and they're holding hands, looking like a pair of teenage lovebirds. It's so cute and sends warm tickles through my heart. To be so in love, and adore someone for aslong as you've been married, and to grow old someone puts a smile on my face.

new season.

so, it seems like i make/start a new blog every other month or so. it's a bad habit, for which i have little motivation to continue on a consistent basis. but this time will be different. or will it? guess we'll wait to see.


i've been busy lately. keeping and staying busy. which is good considering i get bored really quickly. and yearn for new things all the time. which may be an explanation for the multiple jobs i've had simultaneously. but i've gotten better. to quote my friend alex, who is always quick to point out the obvious, "wow, you only have two jobs right now?"


i am finishing my last semester at csulb. graduating in may. working at enzoani as executive assistant. similar to anne hathaway in the devil wears prada, but not at all. that's the best explanation i can come up with.


am i nervous to graduate? my answer: not at all. i'm thrilled. i'm more anxious to see what God has planned for me after graduation. whether it's to join the american work force, or continue to work and take on graduate school at the same time. who knows. i'm sure he'll show me at His time.


have more time in your day? you should visit a few friends pages':
http://brynnecoetzee.blogspot.com/
http://danielchesnutproductions.blogspot.com/
www.watchthisjenna.blogspot.com



i'm gonna get better at blogging. pinky promise. (sidenote: why is it that the pinky bears the biggest weight in carrying a promise? how can a pinky...one of the smallest body parts... be responsible for keeping a secret? that's a huge task for such a limited body part. just a thought).

xoxo

This is what love looks like.

always in our hearts.

This one is for Katherine.

in the end...

only kindness matters.

--Jewel.

Things that I've learned about myself:
-i don't stand up for myself enough, because i fear that people will get upset with me for disagreeing with them.
-i don't like to dissapoint those that i care about.
-i'm too hard on myself.
-my confidence flucuates depending on the situation.
-i don't say what i'm always feeling.
-i think i'm overbearing for some people.
-my sarcasm hurts feelings, when they don't know i'm joking.
-i think with my heart in the beginning...and then my head interrupts later.
-i like spending time with people that make me smile.
-i've gotten good at smiling on the outside.
-i "stick around" to help out, even though i so badly want to leave, and live my life. I can't be a babysitter forever...
-i think i've become more pessimistic.--something i don't want to be...


--I'm so proud of Katherine. She has graduated, and is on her way to tech school. From joining the airforce, she has gained independence, and a sense of freedom that i long for, and is doing something for herself, and her future.--I wish her the best of luck.

--everyone tells me that i should leave. there are so many places that i could go. if thats the case...then why do i make excuses to stay? i tell them i don't mind...that its best for me if i stick around, telling myself that nothing would ever get done if i left. is that true? i wish i could have gone to study abroad. my plan would have worked so perfectly.--being gone for 6 months, living life, becoming independent, and then coming home, i would automatically be able to go on my own without worrying about leaving because i would have already been gone.--but no, i was denied. now i'm stuck to think of another plan. maybe its good that i still live at home...i don't make enough to live on my own anyways. oh well.

--rereading that paragraph made me think of how pessimistic i am. instead of complaining about it maybe i should enjoy all the things that are great in my life right now<3>